[ his question brings her out of her pipe dream, and her expression falls downhearted while wrapping a few strands of her hair around her index finger. ]

... Because I know if he ever finds out we have Shimmer, he'll try to get rid of it. We'll just go back to how things were. There's no... starting over.

[ there's another reason, too, and she builds up the courage to be truthful. ]

I know you don't like him, and I want to be with someone who you approve of, who you'll like. ... Being with him will hurt you, and I've done enough of that already.