The question rings like an accusation in Richard's ears, piercing his chest like an arrow. The corner of his lip tug back, making his mouth a tightly shut line as he stares at Silco under his dark curls.
Why did he keep doing this, even when knowing very well that it is a sin? The answer is simple, really.]
When we first met you asked me what was my specialty, remember? My answer has not changed. [Deceit. Turning truth into lies and lies in truth. Making people think that he was something that he was not.] I do this is because it is in my nature. I want it even if it is a sin.
[Because he is filled with dark and ugly urges. "Your every desire is a sin." Hadn't his mother called it out all those years ago? That despite no matter he tried he would always find himself within the darkness like a criminal. Richard had just given up fighting that and decided to allow himself to indulge in the warmth and pleasure that he had always wanted - even if it meant turning his back to the god.]
You say that but this is not the first time we've had this discussion. [There was an air of disappointment within Silco's words. While Richard supposes he could somehow understand it, as no one could ever truly be fully satisfied in playing the role of a mistress forever, but he still couldn't wrap his head around why would Silco want them to be known. Why couldn't they stay in darkness.]
Once the truth is out you can no longer protect me.
cw: internalized & religious homophobia
The question rings like an accusation in Richard's ears, piercing his chest like an arrow. The corner of his lip tug back, making his mouth a tightly shut line as he stares at Silco under his dark curls.
Why did he keep doing this, even when knowing very well that it is a sin? The answer is simple, really.]
When we first met you asked me what was my specialty, remember? My answer has not changed. [Deceit. Turning truth into lies and lies in truth. Making people think that he was something that he was not.] I do this is because it is in my nature. I want it even if it is a sin.
[Because he is filled with dark and ugly urges. "Your every desire is a sin." Hadn't his mother called it out all those years ago? That despite no matter he tried he would always find himself within the darkness like a criminal. Richard had just given up fighting that and decided to allow himself to indulge in the warmth and pleasure that he had always wanted - even if it meant turning his back to the god.]
You say that but this is not the first time we've had this discussion. [There was an air of disappointment within Silco's words. While Richard supposes he could somehow understand it, as no one could ever truly be fully satisfied in playing the role of a mistress forever, but he still couldn't wrap his head around why would Silco want them to be known. Why couldn't they stay in darkness.]
Once the truth is out you can no longer protect me.