[That was never the word that he would associate with him and Vander coming into contact with each other. There was too much history, too much hurt, too many slights against each other to ever make them anything others than broken angry versions of themselves when in one another presences. He didn't doubt for a second that he would feel the old burn of anger at years old hurts and betrayals.
Silco shook his head even as he brushed out Jinx's hair, finding it easier the more that he managed to work though. If anything, his hands worked faster to keep up with his twisting and churning thoughts. No, he needed to see for himself, and he would perhaps have to eliminate the threat to his relationship with Jinx. That she was already concerned for Vander was enough of a weight to increase his hostility towards the man, if he was indeed alive and here.
He would kill him. Would it matter? No. This place removed that, but it would feel good for a split second. Or he would die in the attempt. He needed to see.
He didn't realize his breathing rate had increased, his face twisted with conflicted emotions, and he was shaking his head.]
No. [He took a deeper breath and held it, forcing calm.] No, happiness is not an emotion he would experience for me. I'll... go to make certain you're safe.
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Date: 2025-01-02 02:54 am (UTC)[That was never the word that he would associate with him and Vander coming into contact with each other. There was too much history, too much hurt, too many slights against each other to ever make them anything others than broken angry versions of themselves when in one another presences. He didn't doubt for a second that he would feel the old burn of anger at years old hurts and betrayals.
Silco shook his head even as he brushed out Jinx's hair, finding it easier the more that he managed to work though. If anything, his hands worked faster to keep up with his twisting and churning thoughts. No, he needed to see for himself, and he would perhaps have to eliminate the threat to his relationship with Jinx. That she was already concerned for Vander was enough of a weight to increase his hostility towards the man, if he was indeed alive and here.
He would kill him. Would it matter? No. This place removed that, but it would feel good for a split second. Or he would die in the attempt. He needed to see.
He didn't realize his breathing rate had increased, his face twisted with conflicted emotions, and he was shaking his head.]
No. [He took a deeper breath and held it, forcing calm.] No, happiness is not an emotion he would experience for me. I'll... go to make certain you're safe.