u'd think if the council cared about rehabilitation, they'd do something about my... "freak outs". i dont like admitting i get them, but this is just between u and me so its ok.
No doubt they are of the opinion of personal responsibility and accountability rather than actually providing services that will rehabilitate. Not that it matters: you are perfect as you are.
Do they bother you so much? They seem to have increased in frequency since the gemstone came into our lives.
[He wanted to say the sister, but he knew better. He also knew the sister was a spark to cause fire, not the incendiary.]
('you are perfect as you are', gods it's been so long since she heard that. and with everything that's going on in her life right now, it's something she needs to hear. )
i guess its just. pressure. maybe? back home was preettttty bonkers, ha ha!
the council, for one. theyre not like OUR council back home. i know hextech was created with magic and science, and one member was an immortal and i think another was a golem or whatever.
but none of them were mages or gods or had some kind of power where they could just turn us on and off whenever they feel like it. not even janna did that. or at least in the stories ive been told to as a kid.
i dont HATE magic, but... that gives me the creepy crawlies. i dont like knowing someone can just null my shimmer ability or mess with my head. and i dont know when itll happen or when itll stop. ive never been... — ( she pauses, really hating the next word she's about to write.) — controlled before or needing to follow orders by someone else who isnt u. and i dont like how it feels. i feel caged. a lot. and i dont think my voices like it too much either.
[He read her reply three times before he settled on a reply to her. This was something that required a certain amount of care after all, and her fears were justified given the unknowns that they faced in this new place. She also no longer experienced the same protections as she had in Zaun; Vander then himself were both protective of her regardless of the harshness of their city.
For Silco, this Council was not so different from the old one. It loomed large and overreaching, a thumb on his existence that he spent a lifetime rebelling against and would continue to do so until the day that he ceased to be.]
They are not so different from our Council; the illusion of caring for its citizens remains, and those of the undercity remains the scourge of their dispassionate eye. And yes, a sentient golem species and a yordle along with five humans. We don't know what the current one is staffed with yet.
The best course of action may be to leave Aldrip altogether. The Council's reach seems to be hampered by living in another city, or at least that is my suspicion with Kirimann and your sister having to come to Rumpitur to collect me for sentencing. It wasn't Kirimann's choice.
I will not have you controlled for long if I can help it. We are of the free city of glass and metal, the nation of Zaun. We do as we must for survival and enhancing our lives anyway we can.
[Things would always be unnecessarily messy because of the sister, and he was still coming to terms with that. At least they avoided each other as much as possible, which satisfied him otherwise he would have her assassinated.
Of course, he still would eventually, but he wanted to get himself and Jinx established first.]
I'm aware of where she was and her state.
She won't leave the enforcer behind and Kirimann has a business started in Aldrip. I'll continue as normal for now until you are able to leave the city and begin seeking real estate in other cities then.
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i dont like admitting i get them, but this is just between u and me so its ok.
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Do they bother you so much? They seem to have increased in frequency since the gemstone came into our lives.
[He wanted to say the sister, but he knew better. He also knew the sister was a spark to cause fire, not the incendiary.]
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i guess its just. pressure. maybe? back home was preettttty bonkers, ha ha!
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[It was also a frantic situation with many elements all competing for attention at the same time.]
There are less pressures here for similar results, yet, I see you struggling.
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well. some things been... hard.
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but none of them were mages or gods or had some kind of power where they could just turn us on and off whenever they feel like it. not even janna did that. or at least in the stories ive been told to as a kid.
i dont HATE magic, but... that gives me the creepy crawlies. i dont like knowing someone can just null my shimmer ability or mess with my head. and i dont know when itll happen or when itll stop. ive never been... — ( she pauses, really hating the next word she's about to write.) — controlled before or needing to follow orders by someone else who isnt u. and i dont like how it feels. i feel caged. a lot. and i dont think my voices like it too much either.
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For Silco, this Council was not so different from the old one. It loomed large and overreaching, a thumb on his existence that he spent a lifetime rebelling against and would continue to do so until the day that he ceased to be.]
They are not so different from our Council; the illusion of caring for its citizens remains, and those of the undercity remains the scourge of their dispassionate eye. And yes, a sentient golem species and a yordle along with five humans. We don't know what the current one is staffed with yet.
The best course of action may be to leave Aldrip altogether. The Council's reach seems to be hampered by living in another city, or at least that is my suspicion with Kirimann and your sister having to come to Rumpitur to collect me for sentencing. It wasn't Kirimann's choice.
I will not have you controlled for long if I can help it. We are of the free city of glass and metal, the nation of Zaun. We do as we must for survival and enhancing our lives anyway we can.
It may come to war.
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ill suck it up. whatever the council is doing to me, ill stop complaining about it.
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You are always free to express yourself with me. And I am free to do what I can to protect you.
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( also not a complaint, just stating the caring notion. )
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[But he'll never refuse an opportunity to hear it again.]
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im still on the fence with vi. i love her, always will. at least i like to think i always will.
but shes obsessed with caitlyn and i told her if she wants to make it right with me, to apologize to u for punching u.
but... she refuses. no surpise there. so sometimes i feel... she doesnt need me at all.
but then the last time i saw her, she was a real mess. wasted out of her freaking mind and she... needed me then.
if u were wondering why i didnt come home one night. i had to spend the night with her, i couldnt just leave her alone.
so.
i dont know. ill have to chat with her about it. maybe she wants to move too.
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Of course, he still would eventually, but he wanted to get himself and Jinx established first.]
I'm aware of where she was and her state.
She won't leave the enforcer behind and Kirimann has a business started in Aldrip. I'll continue as normal for now until you are able to leave the city and begin seeking real estate in other cities then.
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ive asked some people what hobbies theyre into. maybe i can do whatever they do to pass the time.
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Perhaps you could construct me something similar to those mechanical insects that you had on the bridge.
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