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Date: 2025-01-23 03:44 pm (UTC)His hands remained under Richard's thighs, supporting his lover's weight and appreciating the hold of those long muscled legs around his weight and the grip on his shoulder. He ground further against his lover, teasing to work up the mood again before he tilted his head so he could watch Richard with his blue eye as the younger man froze up and pulled away. There wasn't a lot of options on where Richard could go, and yet he hummed at the press of Richard's face to his shoulder, grimacing as there was a small ripple of pain from the injury to his neck on the opposite side.
His fingers dug into the younger man's thighs, and pulled Richard off of the wall, taking three careful steps to the left so he could move them off of the wall to press Richard against the window instead. There would be a shadow viewed but because of Richard's dress, there was only a tease of what might be happening and with whom.] Oh I was planning to regardless...
[As if to prove his point, he did cease the teasing and pressed himself into his lover's moist entrance with a single smooth thrust. He adjusted his grip and nestled his nose into the hair behind Richard's ear.] Don't make me do all the work then... [He would, but it would engage better for them both to be into this, to apply all that pent up energy into this. He withdrew and thrust back in, starting a slow teasing rhythm to try to draw Richard back into the moment.]
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Date: 2025-01-25 12:03 am (UTC)The gesture is affectionate and soothing, making Silco's words sound almost romantic. A promise to stand next to him. No matter what.. Richard almost wanted to believe those words. In another life he even might]
... There was once someone I looked at in search of love and acceptance. [He says as he opens his eyes and slowly turns to face the older man. His amber eye peeking underneath the dark locks. The suffocated pain hidden behind his expression yet so evident in his distant voice.] And yet he failed at both. All because of what lies in that book.
[it was utterly unfair to compare Silco to someone like Henry. One was from the darkness when other one was light. But the wound is open now and Richard can't stop his fears and the pain of the past bleeding out. He had frozen his heart and locked away his desires once before. He could bury them with another lover if push really came to shove. He really could do it.. He would do it, just like Silco had said.
But that didn't mean he wanted to.] Don't read it. You've said it yourself. You have no use for the light.
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Date: 2025-01-25 12:29 pm (UTC)His fingers lightly closed on the sides of his lover's neck, offering a small massage for the confession. He made a point of shifting, moving his body closer rather than away so that their sides pressed together. He could not believe that he who had done so much others would consider vile would be suddenly turned by a holy book. Quite the opposite, which may be part of the fear too.
Yet, something stood out in thr confession and of course he was curious enough to pursue it regardless of potential discomfort.] Tell me, is that what you are truly searching for, Richard? Love and acceptance?
[He considered the urging to not read the book, his fingers still massaging the back of his lover's neck.] No I have no use of the light for myself, but that doesn't mean that it isn't an advantage to understand. There is power in knowledge. What if I promised you that if I felt tempted by this book, I would immediately stop reading it and bring it to you? You are my source expert on this religion after all. We can seap ourselves in darkness to cleanse me of such temptation?
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Date: 2025-01-27 02:28 am (UTC)[Yes. The ultimate source of power and light - an access to any delight and pleasure in the world. Escape from the sadness and fear for good. Maybe even the memory of Henry would not have such hold over him anymore. The crown was the only thing that truly mattered, and something that Richard could truly touch and possess in his hands. And Silco knew this as they had been over this time after time.
That is what he is searching for, yes. The demon could only gain light and acceptance by stealing. And yet... Witch's words keep echoing in his mind. You can't help but want it.
He can feel the warmth radiating from his lover's body against him as their knees brushed against each other. And he wants nothing more than to lean against the touch, rest his head on the other man's shoulder and allow himself to soothed into comfort. He was so tired. From the separation, Christmas, Joan and the conversation. All of it felt like a force pressing on his skull.
But instead of accepting the rest he reached to grab the fingers massaging his neck. His own hand curls around the digits as he pulls them away.] If going against my request is what you want then so shall be it. But know this, the moment your heart wavers I will baptize you again with your own blood. [Stick to what you know as they say. And for Richard that was threat of lingering violence. But just like always, his words were hardly empty sounds let run loose on the church ceiling. No, he was fully serious. Betrayal of any kind was not to be tolerated.]
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Date: 2025-01-27 06:38 pm (UTC)[He knew what light that Richard was chasing, something that he knew all too well. The chase was always more to the point than the end itself. He had found that the end was disappointing when he had reached it, but yet there was more work to be done so he couldn't stop long.]
Do you believe the light inside of that crown and position will bring you happiness?
[Silco was equally tired by their separation, even if it hadn't been abrupt. They had talked about it, and he had accepted it as a necessary reality but being close again, letting some of his guard down reminded him of why he and Richard found each other so often in the past. He could close his eye and rest his temple on Richard's and simply sit quietly with the younger man regardless of the ridiculous decorations of the church.
He sat up again when his fingers were seized and pulled away, and he huffed noisily at Richard's usual theatrics when it came to going against his lover's wishes. It was just a book. He'd read plenty of provocative works of writing in the past and aside from thinking a time on it, little had moved him from his path.] My heart will not waver. [His other hand rose to stroke over the mostly healed scab on his neck where he had been 'baptized' in the past.] Third time is a charm then. Alright, if you see weakness growing in me, make me bleed.
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Date: 2025-01-28 01:41 am (UTC)There is a tightening in Richard's chest as the weight of the question fills in the air. He can feel the weight of it press down at him, the thorns prickling through his leather and sinking deep into his flesh. And Silco's words that followed the initial question only twists his stomach further and allows the discomfort to seep into his open, bleeding wound.
Did Richard believe that? Maybe. He did not know. Who knows, maybe the wretched of the earth living the cursed life while covered in the infectious boils and what not could find light and feel love? Maybe thieves and other miscreants hiding in the shadows could do it? Sinners and heretics? Who knows. But what about men like him and Silco -- those who would devour lives and destroy those around them just to satisfy their dark ambitions? The reason in him says no. People like them can not possess something human like love, not without destroying each other.
That had been the reason why Richard had felt like he could give in his own desires and lean into this relationship. They were kin, in a sense at least, able to lick each other wounds and find comfort in their shared cage. But at the same time he didn't doubt that they would turn their fangs against each other given the opportunity. Wasn't that what their constant warnings for betrayal were all about?
His thoughts take him briefly back to the man that was not in this world. The one who owned half of his soul and had pledged himself to him in body and mind. Buckingham was like Silco, seeking to steal and claim whatever he wished for all while scoffing at the idea of God and Fate. Both of his lovers truly were similar in more ways than one. Could Buckingham love him? Again, he's not sure. Their bond was merely built around the common goal and the only reason they shared bed was to strengthen their resolve -- to prove that they were willing to face the flames of hell together. Nothing more... Correct.
The visible dark eye follows the movement of Silco's free hand as he reaches to touch his neck. The scar had healed nicely, the red cut having turned into barely visible dusty pink and dry line. A proof of the promise behind their bond. There is a small tug in Richard's chest as a familiar feeling stirred within him. It was the damned hope that had awoken during their first meeting all those months ago, raising its persistent head and pushing though the despair.
Inhaling deep, Richard lets go off Silco's hand and slouches forward, resting his elbows against his knees as he crossed his hands, eyes looking down at the floor at their feet. There is a brief and yet heavy silence as he chewed over his own previous outburst.]
Have you felt it, then? Love towards another human being that is not your daughter.
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Date: 2025-01-28 03:10 pm (UTC)Humanity and most sentient creatures all needed the same thing: connection. It may be life-long or fleeting, but in togetherness, they found a comfort that isolation tore away and ground to dust. Could love be found in the darkness? He actually believed it was possible, but it would be hot like a forge - uncomfortable - and cold like frozen steel. It would be sharp, painful, made on broken and repaired frames, teetering with jealousy, possessiveness, desperation. It was tainted and ugly like them, a shattered cracked mirror with a kaleidoscope of tiny broken moments.
Love was an unbearable weakness when found in the dark. It was deadly.
His hand followed Richard once it was dropped, settling on the small of his lover's back and stroking affectionately up to between shoulder then back down again. He dug his fingers in lightly through the fabric of Richard's clothing, absently repeating the gesture over and over again. The question paused his fingers for a moment before they returned to their affectionate stroking up and down Richard's back.]
When I was a weak man, yes. [He could admit that much.] It blinded me, softened my spine and left me open for betrayal. [Vander, Felicia. He had loved them both in very different ways, her like a sister, the life of a party who danced and laughed freely, challenged him to fulfill the dream. And him who he had loved strong enough it took his breath away and... well, they were dead now. He'd outlived them all. He reached up and softly drew his fingers down the left side of his face.] The one I loved gave me this. Then love turned to hatred but then... if he hadn't softened and remained weak, I wouldn't have had to kill him.
[A soft sigh as issued from between his lips. A part of him never stopped loving that man, his brother, his rock, his betrayer...]
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Date: 2025-02-02 01:50 am (UTC)There was nothing quite as pleasing as using this cursed body of his to make another person to submit. But then again. There were times when it was just fine to melt in another one's embrace and let them to break him apart and mold him a new. Just like right now.
A quick flash of panicked fear made his heart skip a beat when Silco moved them and pressed him against the window. But the moment was over before it could even properly start. It was alright, even if one were to look up they would have to be lucky to see anything more than a dark figure. Everything was alright.
Out of reflex he let go of his lover's neck and bend his hand back to grasp on the metallic frames to gain some support as he stretched his neck to meet the glass. It was jarring how cool the new surface felt compared to the wall, clashing against the heat of his body. But he doesn't have long to focus on it as his entire attention was quickly stolen away when the blunt end pressed against his entrance and pushed inside, forcing his walls to part and make room for the intrusion.
It had been sometime since the last time they had done this. But it seemed like his body remembered Silco, his touch and shape. So the uncomfortable stretch and pressure do not last long, fading quickly as his lover began to move and thrust his hips into him. The burn remained, of course. But it was not enough, staying only as quiet spark rather than building up into a blazing flame.
Richard tried to move himself along with Silco, but the position where he had only so much support for his body so his movements were awkward and jerking, lacking the usual smooth grace he carried himself with. So, he pushed his upper body to lean back against Silco's again, arms wrapping around his lover.]
Silco. It's not enough.. [The words are spokenwith airy and husky tone. He then cranes his neck forward and bites down on the man's earlobe, pulling the soft flesh with his teeth before continuing with:] Make it burn more.
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Date: 2025-02-03 01:31 am (UTC)The blinding love, one that left you weak and desperate. Clinging on the smallest crumbs of the hope while begging for agony to both end and continue at the same time. He had felt the same. His foolish love for another man had driven him crazy. Was still driving him crazy.
But in Silco's words he hears the one true thing that he need to hear. "When I was a weak man." Silco was not that person anymore and he had, just like Richard, recognized the weakness and pain that such bond would bring. They might be lovers but there would not be love between them. Silco's embrace would never kill him.
He turned his gaze away from Silco and looked at the candlelit altar again. Though this time he was looking for something else, something that was not there. The true light.]
I killed the person I loved the most in a place very similar to this. And I would do it again and again. Until his soul is untethered and torn like a pathetic piece of rug, unrecognizable from what it before was. And I would do it with a joy.
[Just like Silco, Richard also killed the previous himself. He had died along with Henry, leaving behind only the demon. They truly were similar like that. Except no... He might have actually died a long time ago. In that forest where his mother had left him. The realization brings back the confidence to his body language, chasing away the wavering uncertainty and calming down the storm of emotions within him. This time it was not Joan's curses he heard, but the guiding and comforting words of his father. There is solace in solitude. ]
Inside the crown there is a golden circle of light. And within that circle there is the true paradise. The kind what poets and story tellers could only dream of. No need for sadness nor for fear. [He repeats the mantra, answering to Silco's earlier question. Yes. He believed that the crown would bring him happiness. After all, a king could have anything he ever wanted. He would be freed of the demons of the past.] The world is nothing but hell on Earth until the crown is placed on this head.
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Date: 2025-02-05 01:53 pm (UTC)That warm heat was inviting, drawing him in with a little effort on his part, and he shuddered down his spine in response. He leaned back to balance his own motions even as his hands remained fixed around the back of Richard's thighs as he used the leverage to work himself in and out of his lover in a set rhythm, wanting to provide Richard the opportunity to find a comfortable position.
He stepped in a small step when his lover's arms wrapped around him again, a momentary hitch to his rhythm as he adjusted to the change to his balance.] Wrap your legs around my waist. Use them to lift... [He trailed off, his brain momentary static of pleasure to the bite on his earlobe, and the thought was lost. He punctuated the thought with a harder thrust, digging his nails into Richard's thighs
Of course, who was he to deny such a request when it was for the benefit of them both? He angled his hips in and under Richard for a better angle, and his rhythm of thrusting increased with speed and force now that they had been warmed up.] Kiss me like you are going to war....
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Date: 2025-02-05 02:12 pm (UTC)It was a fact that neither one of them could entirely trust again. There was too much background, too many slights and betrayals, so they had to focus forward on their goals. In this way, Silco had always felt a connection to Richard that he hadn't felt with anyone else, not even his own daughter.
Yet his gaze moved from watching the back of Richard's head to look across the altar with all its little decorations and candles bathing the place in light. His fingers dragged over the spot between his lover's shoulder blades, and he considered the tale being woven for him. It was more details that he supposed he had given about his own lover.]
What betrayal did this person do against your person to provoke such a response? This is supposed to be a holy place according to you, and you killed a man under the eye of your God. That's... bold.
[He knew what it was like though, to wish to repeat that moment over and over again, to claim the victory and prove everyone who thought they could be redeemed or brought to heel wrong. He had drive the knife into Vander's back and then front, had looked into those gray eyes and felt a momentary heat when he knew that he had won, that he had overcome a greater enemy and completed his transformation to something more. No longer would he be that dirty little thing of the undercity.
Yet, he sighed from his nose as the same old tale was spoken of. He'd seen the crown and hadn't thought much of it, but he could tell that Richard was drive to achieve that.] And will you bring about a Hell to those that prevented and stood in your path from achieving this golden light? It seems to me that the higher in the political world one ventures, the more inherent dangers there are, but these knives are cloaked behind smiles and ambition. It seems you might be happy but walking into a larger fight at the same time.
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Date: 2025-02-06 04:09 am (UTC)on her end, there's a lot of clanking of cups and dishes, machinery purring, muted music of whatever is currently playing through the café speakers (opera, probably), and stifled voices of customers and her workers conversing. sounds like a busy day on her side, too. ]
Hey, hey, Mr. Busy bee! Calling to let ya know I'll be a little late for dinner. I'm so swamped. Everyone's REALLY into my hot chocolate bombs. They're cleaning me out, ha ha!!
[ a beat. ]
But don't worry, I'll totally still be there. Nothing is gonna keep me away from your famous fish and chips!
[ then all of a sudden, she states the next bit of information extremely fast:]
Oh, and also Ekko asked me out on a date and I said yes, and have no idea when we're going, but I just thought I should let you know, because, uh. Ya know. — ANYWAY!! See you when I get home, Love you, BYE!
[ click. ]
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Date: 2025-02-07 02:01 pm (UTC)Finally, his daughter was tapping into her workaholic potential on matters that he could encourage and relate to. He leaned back in his chair, enjoying himself. He had no issue moving dinner time back; it wasn't as if he enjoyed eating in the first place and did it to survive as a point.
Then the subject shifted, and any relish he had evaporated in her quick information dump. That boy! It was always that ridiculous freedom fighter encroaching on what was his! Silco spent the rest of the work day in a foul mood, snapping at his employees, sequestering himself away and throwing a little temper tantrum in his office as he worked through paperwork. He fumed and worked up his temper over the next several hours and instead of calling her back, he decided to nurse the fury in his guts as he returned to their shared home.
He prepped dinner and went to the couch and wait for his daughter, continuing to read this Bible and fuming. His body language was all tense and sharp and displeasure radiated off him.]
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Date: 2025-02-07 05:41 pm (UTC)so there is a bit of a pep in her step and a song in her heart as she makes her way home. even the chilled weather (that jinx isn't too particularly fond of) can't damper her spirits right now, as she fishes in her pockets for the keys. once in, his daughter announces herself, as per usual: ]
I'm home! — Time to shove everything in my mouth and not leave anything for the mice.
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Date: 2025-02-08 02:32 pm (UTC)He should have kidnapped the boy the moment he became aware of Ekko, locking the boy up and not killing him. Removing the obstacle without providing it opportunity to cause trouble for him and his. There were a list of people he should do that with apparently. He was slacking while playing 'nice' in this place; perhaps it was long passed time to return to form.
He turned the page of his book blindly, having read and re-read the words without processing them. He closed his eye and forced himself to take a breath to hold in his lungs. This daughter of his would be the death of him again in no time.]
Worked up an appetite, did you? I'll finish the meal then.
[He snapped his book closed, his voice tight but controlled as he pushed himself from the couch and headed for the kitchen.]
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Date: 2025-02-08 04:28 pm (UTC)Rough day?
[ she figures to go ahead and go for the kill, instead of beating around the bush about it. and as silco completes their dinner, she scuttles off to the cabinets for the dishwares; setting the table. ]
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Date: 2025-02-09 03:27 am (UTC)The gravity helps, of course, and each time he comes down to meet Silco's hips it feels like the older man manages to push just further in, filling him to the brink. Each thrust was like a force pushing inside, trying to reach up deep his body. And each of the snap of hips was met with a high pitched cry and moan from Richard.
While the events of this encounter had not gone exactly as Richard planned, with them having taking a rather unfortunate detour to murky waters, they had still ended up right where he had intended them to. It had been in his plans to land himself on top of Silco and drain him and take everything out of him. And here he was, pushed up against the window while having the older man pour his everything into him. The frustration, anger, pain and lust. All of them were present here and pouring roughly into Richard, burning him just as he wanted. He could feel the familiar hot and wet pleasure to begin to pool inside him.
And for that, he saw no reason to deny Silco his own request. He leaned in to capture Silco's lips with his own, pulling him into a deep and heated kiss. It was more messier and uncoordinated than what it would normally be, nipping and sucking on his lips, tongue and teeth -- as if he was trying to devour the other man. So lost he was in the passion of their kiss.
The room was filled with wet and lascivious sounds. Skin slapping against skin, lips sucking lips and mouths panting and moaning as they moved together. Then, there was one thrust that brushed less than an inch differently against his walls, rubbing briefly against the bundle of nerves that made his body jerk and stars appear behind his eyes. His own cock, that was still hidden underneath the pooled fabric, twitched in response with some precum leaking out.]
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Date: 2025-02-09 05:31 am (UTC)Except he thought she might underestimate his low burning emotional response to the progress of that relationship. It seemed time to invest in bunkers under all of his businesses, and properly outfit each one with the means to contain his enemies. The boy would break in the first. Silco would break his knees first so there would be less chance of running away.
He set the fish to the cooktop, keenly aware of Jinx's movements even as he fantasized about murdering that boy. Maybe cut him to pieces. Well, cut him a little each day so he didn't die.]
Oh it was meandering as it normally does from start to finish. There was a small interruption in the form of a questionable voicemail, of course.
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Date: 2025-02-09 06:28 am (UTC)Oh! Uh... [ the words crash together inside her throat, fighting their way to form sentences or... something worthwhile. ] — Ahem, at least it was small, eh? Nothing big to fuss about. I'd ignore it if I were you!
[ she settles the bottle on his side of the table next to his glass, then trails back to hers, but watching him cook for a moment. ]
Table's done. Need an extra hand? I promise my metal finger won't gunk up the taste of the fish.
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Date: 2025-02-09 02:35 pm (UTC)If it was important enough to require a voice mail in the first place, I won't ignore the contents of it.
[He flipped the battered fish in the pan to fry the other side of it, tension across his shoulders. He knew why she was leaving such messages after their last discussion on the subject. If anything, it didn't feel long enough time between then and now.]
It will only be a few minutes.
[He returned to silence for half a minute before he couldn't help himself. It didn't help his case that he was fuming.]
I don't approve of the amount of time you spend with that boy. And a date? No, no that is too friendly.
[He will currently ignore the fact that he knows they are sleeping together. It's this being the problem.]
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Date: 2025-02-10 12:04 am (UTC)Sooooo swapping saliva and sleeping with him is a-go then. Cool, glad we're on the same page, 'cause I'm way ahead of you on that.
[ she stretches out for her chair and takes a seat incorrectly, the back side of it pressing against her front with her arms draping over. ]
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Date: 2025-02-12 04:18 am (UTC)Even their journey's followed a similar path. A life overshadowed by oppressive power, choking them out and forcing them in the quiet and resigned role determined for them by nation. They both had found a dream -- which only was stolen away by a betrayal, leaving behind only a husk, a shadow of their former selves.
And now Silco was asking the story behind the betrayal that happened all those years ago, the event that had killed his previous, weak self. Richard eyes were focused on the altar, mind revisiting that evening. But strangely enough, he felt nothing. No panic, fear or pain -- just a distant recollection.]
..He called me a demon. [He answers after a brief silence. That's right, Henry had seen him for who he was and failed to love him. He had murdered his heart and Richard took his life. It had been inevitable.
Richard then turned his head to look into his lover's eyes, his own expression now confident and unwavering. ] The politics are nothing but another battleground. And just like with war the stakes are high, life or death. And that is exactly why men like us do what we do. We fight, Silco. The moment we stop we enter to our graves.
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Date: 2025-02-12 04:19 am (UTC)I'm aware of your dalliances with him. You make little, if any, secret of it.
[He kept himself 'busy' at the stovetop longer than strictly necessary, needing something to occupy his hands that wasn't a cigar or a drink.]
He arrived back and, as usual, meddled in affairs not his own.
[Why yes, it was all Ekko's fault. He considered and then immediately discounted the notion that it was some deep mutual attraction. No, that was something he couldn't allow himself to accept; it meant he was another step closer to losing her.]
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Date: 2025-02-12 04:56 am (UTC)by hitting the table. ]
Uuuuuuggggh, Siiilllcooooo! — Come on, already! He hasn't done a single thing. And I mean physically.
[ roll her head back, she folds her arms over the top railing of the chair, with her chin resting along them. ]
Tell ya what: when I go out on a date with him, use that time to go on one with Richard. A win-win for everyone. Maybe go down to bone city with him or however you two, you know, do it. Don't give me the details, don't wanna know. Keep my innocent brain innocent.
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Date: 2025-02-12 06:13 am (UTC)In order to thrive, they had to kill the weakness inside of themselves, to make that decision to keep fighting no matter the cost. And this man, this Henry who had once been King, had given that life-altering choice that he had once faced with him. Die under the weight, or fight for something worth believing, worth striving for.]
And you embraced what he called you on his corpse. Those of us who wish to be more have to step beyond the titles laid over us to become something more.
[He met Richard's gaze evenly, and the corner of his lips twitched at the truthful words. A war of words and ambition was as dangerous as a war of ones fists or weapons.] We all wage our own wars for our own ambition and perhaps... [He reached out and ran the back of his knuckles against Richard's smooth cheek.] to prove them all that those titles bestowed on us like a curse are little more than motivation to put a boot on their throats. The fear of death should never stop us from accomplishing what we need to.